A slipping down life

I just had a major revelation about myself tonight and now I can't sleep. Im not doing good at all right now. I want to get better so badly but i cant seem to do it. But at least now i understand why im acting the way im acting. But i still dont have a solution yet. Im getting my anxiety back again and i just cant take it. All i can do is pray because i feel weak and helpless right now. Thinking positive. Hoping for the best. This year is not turning out how i hoped it would but maybe the rest of it can get better.